Tuesday, December 15, 2009

DONE

You reminded me of pain
a kind of hurt
from the past,altered trust
a resemblance of my mishap
a wound,an unwanted recap
or potential for a possiblity of one
two or three.....okay im DONE
WITH YOU THAT IS,I'M DONE

Scratch you off okay you're gone
of course you didn't last why would you?
the alliance that was structured was untrue
because after I dissolved the facad
I saw you for what you really are in a different hue
the uncertainities should have warned me
but I embraced your promises instead of reality
once bitten twice shy for the wise
how foolish of me believe another mouth full of lies

You reminded me of Him
a kind of hurt
and after him,was you my last resort
your kiss was the sweetest bitterness
and your touch was the roughest caress
and Everytime I loved you I loved myself
----a little more less

SO I SCRATCHED YOU OFF OKAY LIKE I SAID YOU'RE GONE
so at this point I guess its okay to feel numb
because then I can exscape the sting of the burn
at the bar I flick off the last of my ciggarette
and reject yet another potential regret
two or three more attempt then I told the last one
..............I was DONE

guess he didnt hear me apparently
because he asked that I speak a little more clearly
I looked in his eyes momentarily
and I see the same thing
I saw in yours and the one before you
A mockery of my desire
handsome face with no depth
just another beautiful liar
I spoke again this time a little bit louder
IM DONE with men that is,I'm DONE
& with that I grabbed my coat & was gone

yesterday's confessions

promised he was gonna bring a sudden reaction
wanted to see me wearing nothing
but a certain facial expression
laughed to myself as I looked him over
even before the present ordeal
kinda figured he was a freak
undercover then he got to pulling on my skirt
as I helped in taking off his polo shirt
his tongue on my neck,hands on my hips
fingers circulating the lining of my lips
he put his hands on my mouth as i got
ready to speak
& asked that I stroked his most treasured gift
which was pleasantly long and thick
he whispered in my ear
if i wanted him to go down there
my body language answered then he proceeded to feast
suppressed a moan as I gritted my teeth
eyes rolled up I went away to space
woke up to hear him say he loved the way I taste
he buried his face in and went even farther
and didnt stop till he extracted my nectar

Our Little Secret

She is beautiful and beyond it
her slant eyes,a temptress,but I choose to forfeit
She is so deep,everything about her sometimes I even felt her in my sleep
"What if my soulmate was another woman" I quote you
....those words so true
The love we have like nothing I can explain
such a shame that it cannot remain
but indulging any further my love would take my soul three steps further from redemption
her slant eyes,a temptress but I choose to resist the temptation
Friends we claimed,being only friends we tried
but any platonic friendship between us died
a long time ago and so to leave is my only resolve
the only way I can stop from getting involved
my love...be strong
maybe in another life our love would be no wrong
but for now the thought alone is SINFUL
A Sin FULL of consequence
and yeah I know it doesn't make sense
for they say "love" should be between Man and Wife
but its so ironic isn't it? this life
because the men we're supposed to reserve it all for
don't even know what to do with us anymore
You watched them hurt me as I watched them hurt you
And no one believed when we said we were through
I laugh because because if only they knew
...funny how we both would have to marry one,one day
they'd try to look in our eyes and we'd look away
when he'd try to hold me close or pluck me a rose
I'd wonder if he knows how much I really hate those
the wholetime I'd be thinking who was doing the same for you
whose IDIOTIC last name you would have to answer to
when we sleep beside them at night and watch them drool
cursing Hell's name for having to marry these fools
after the traditional lovemaking I'd stare at the celing
visualizing what we could have been
if this thing wasn't such a sin
but even with all these I still choose to forfeit
and though your BEAUTIFULL and the only one I ever loved
I gotta look beyond it